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This world is only gonna break your heart. [17 Jun 2005|05:23pm]
[ mood | awake ]

Long time no update. After a while I guess people get too lazy to update these things alot.

I've been hanging around the house lately. Been motivated to practice more than normal, so I figured I'd just take advantage of it and play alot. But, a few days ago me and Ellie did catch a movie. After getting there a half hour early to bug Alex. Ellie is pretty damn good at annoying people.
We sort of had a fight a few days ago too. I hated that. Why can't I just let the Mr. O thing go?

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It just shouldn't be this way [11 Jun 2005|10:14pm]
[ mood | calm ]

Things will Ellie are going good except I'm really worried about her. She's cutting again. And she's being stubborn about getting help. I just don't want to lose her, but then again I don't wnat her to keep doing it. Tough descions egh.

I've talked to Darcy a few times in the past couple of days. It's good to know she's doing much better. I can now completly forgive myself now, which, as self absorbed as it sounds, makes my life much easier not worring about her.

I also talked to Ash once. A bit wierd I guess with everything lately.

I wrote a few more songs. I found a really cool somewhat dark chord progression that I love.

I don't have enought time to update right now. I'm so tired.

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How long until I'm free.. [09 Jun 2005|03:47pm]
[ mood | content ]

I should update this everyday or something. I end up forgeting things if I don't.

So, Ellie's my girlfriend. You all knew that by her post with a 'great' picture of me anyways though. It was bound to happen sooner or later afterall. She came over yesterday. I've been longing to kiss her for weeks, and when we finaly did I felt so great. But, in the middle of our making out she told me what did to get Mr. O to let her stay. Egh, I got pretty upset. I still think he's a bastard.

Manny got pissed at me. I don't blame her though. I'm not always good at being sensitive when it comes to girls feelings. And too make things worse Ellie told her how I said I picked Ellie over Manny. I hate having girl problems.

I talked to Jimmy a few days ago. That was great. It felt like I haven't talked to him in forever. Turns out he hasn't talked to Spinner or Marco in a while either. I like talking to girls and all, but it's nice to talk to someone who I know won't ended up getting a crush on me. And having someone to talk to about girls. Appearntly Jimmy has a thing for Paige. They'd be perfect for each other.

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Upon the sand, upon the bay.. [05 Jun 2005|08:25pm]
[ mood | good ]

Today's been interesting, to say the least.

Amy and I went swimming earlier since it was wicked hot out. That was pretty fun. And I was thinking, how hard would it be to drown if you knew how to swim? Random, but a good question. What do you guys think?

Later I hung out with Darcy. She wasn't in too good a mood, not that I made it better.. We went to the music store. She was hitting on me. When I said we'd be better off as just be friends, she got pretty upset. I felt kind of bad.

And then I hung out with Manny tonight. I played some songs for her, and she said they were good, so I was happy. I kissed her. She kissed me back. It was nice. I'm not too sure what I'm going to do now. I think I know, but.

I should proablly go to sleep soon. I've got to be at work early tomorrow. Egh.

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[05 Jun 2005|01:34pm]
[ mood | bored ]

((Sorry I didn't update at all over the week. School was taking up my time. >_<))

Joey decided last night I wasn't getting out enough lately. Totally random. So, he got me tickets to a concert. I think he just wanted me out of the house. He did let Ang sleep over her friends house, which is something he rarly lets her do. So, the concert was awesome. Just some local bands of course, but I had a great time. I met some cool people too. No one from Degrassi was there though, which sucked.

Still havn't jammed with the guys. Spinners busy hanging out with Alex, I'm waiting for Jimmy to call me back, and I have no clue about Marco.

I've been sleeping in late all weekend. I was late for work four times last week. Let's just say the boss wasn't at all happy.

I'm thinking about going to the mall later or something. Anyone want to go?

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And if I said forget it, you'd repeat it forever... [31 May 2005|09:16pm]
[ mood | confused ]

Joey's out with some relatives earlier, so I watched Ang. Ash came over. That was good except we watched lots of cartoons. It's so confusing. I think I may still like her, but then again, I think I like Ellie.

I was talking to Amy for a while online. When she's not drunk, she's really cool. We talked about a whole bunch of differnt things. College, music, people, ect.

Drama's an interesting thing. I was at The Dot with Ellie, Alex, and Rick. Interesting group, eh? Fighting between Alex and Rick of course. What's new. I'm wondering if he's really better. He says he is, but you can never know. I'm not sure if I can trust him. When I see him, I see my dad. I forgot to check for job openings while I was at the dot. Egh. Oh well.

I still haven't reached any of the guys. Someone call me. It's not that hard and I'm dying to jam.

I'm off to sleep. Night.


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Just keep sining.. [31 May 2005|10:05am]
[ mood | blank ]

Lately, I've been thinking alot more about how I'm incapable of having relationships. Seriously, everything I do ends up wrong. I don't even understand how to fix it once I mess up. Apoligizing doesn't work, and I can't even think of anything else to try.

Joey and I went down to the local music shop a couple days ago and I got this awesome new Gibson. It's amazing. I'll have to call the guys up soon so we can jam. When I brought it home Ang came running in with a big smile on her face. I started to teach her a chord or two and she got excited, saying she cant wait to tell all her friends that she can play guitar. That's what I love about her. She's always so happy and positive. There's nothing negitive in her life.

Speaking of wanting to jam with the guys, I've written three or four new songs since our last practice. Hopefuly they'll like them. I stayed up til 4 in the morning last Tuesday writting one about the whole Ash and Manny situation.

I need a second job. I'm pretty short on cash and Joey said it would be helpful if I chipped in a bit. I don't really know where I'd work though. Maybe I'll ask Spinner if there's an opening at the dot or something. Or maybe they have an opening at the music shop. That's be really awesome.

Well, I promised to take Ang to the park, so I'm off for now.


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